My last blog post was in February 2013. At that point, the Year of the Snake was slithering its way into our lives. I read a prediction for the New Year, which can be so vague and general:
"Look for holes in the loop. A new-found ambition to greatness will inspire you to be all you can be, and provide you with the follow through to actually achieve your goals."
What does any of that mean? Well my goal was to better myself career-wise. So, then I secretly looked for a new job. People around me were getting promoted, finding better jobs and overall felt far more content than I did. I felt safe in my job, but I was unhappy and dissatisfied. I knew I had to leave because I could feel the nepotism burning a hole in my pocket. My envy in 2012 was getting the best of me in 2013. My hole was the mistreatment I felt. My hole was realizing my self worth. So, I left.
It felt good to leave. Once I got there, it was a different story:
"The Snake likes protection, needs to feel safe and secure to utilize its special analytical skills. This is the year to make headway in slow and methodical ways. Things will definitely be accomplished as you focus forward."
I felt safe, this was my comfort zone. I knew how to do this. I knew how to own it and run with it. But was I happy? Was I satisfied? No. But I kept making excuses to stay. I made a promise, so I decided to stick with it.
At the end of the year, our boss decided to leave for another office. Bigger, better opportunity meant more money and responsibilities. In came our new boss and so did a new me.
"This is the year to make headway in slow and methodical ways. Things will definitely be accomplished as you focus forward."
I realized a new me under this regime. I felt empowered, I felt supported and backed up. This is the type of person who should be leading us to success. This new me wasn't going to take bullshit from no one. The more I realized that I wanted something better for myself the more focused I became. I began to say, "No" more. I realized my strengths and weaknesses. I learned to stop being afraid of things. I learned to ask for what I want instead of expecting it. I became stronger by the end of the year and I love this new me. Onward to 2014.


